Sunday 21 March 2010
Not feeling so good today
So my feelings of how wonderful the simple life are have disappeared, to be replaced by despair, envy and bitterness. None of these characteristics represent the person I want to be, and yet at the moment I feel held captive to my negative emotions and all I want to do is cry and feel how life is not fair. I think it could be the hormones mixed with tiredness but I can't seem to rationalise it at all. The thing which really upset me was volunteering to sing at a church event yesterday and baking cakes to accompany the soiree. Thing is, when I got there the place was massively busy with nowhere to sit AND cakes and drinks were being sold as a fundraiser. Now, I was happy to donate my time and culinary efforts to this event. It was a good cause. BUT, I had not a single penny in my purse, and three sweet toothed children by my side. I just couldn't take it and ended up leaving the children with a friend (who so kindly bought cakes for them) and going home and crying for an hour on the sofa. How pathetic?! I am such a sad case. I am trying to believe that things will improve, but it is hard to see at the moment. And I need to apologise to the choir leader for leaving her in the lurch, but I just can't bring myself to even broach the subject. Every time I think about it I just want to cry. I guess it's the hormones. Never mind, not long now.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
9 comments:
(((hugs))) Hormones do play a big part. I can remember feeling particularly awful when I couldn't even manage to take the boys on a picnic whilst pregnant with DD without bursting into tears, and then feeling upset that Mum had to rescue us!
Hope things pick up for you, and thank goodness for friends being there when you need them.
Really feel for you... feeling similar things myself, though with very different circumstances, and I've had a good blub today too! I will be praying for you at this time. Ex
((hug)) You're a very pregnant woman so you're allowed to wail, cry and generally feel rubbish.
:)
Hugs Jo, as you say not long to go, I hated that upsy downsy feeling of late pregnancy, but I am hoping that it passes for you soon xx
Just wanted to send a big hug too xxx
Me too (((hugs)))
Aw, don't be hard on yourself. Pregnancy hormones made me very frightened and tearful, sometimes things just get too much. Take care xxx
oh my darling, bless your heart, hugs and love and lots of it.
Be gentle and kind with yourself,allow yourself space and time to feel whatever you need to feel,without guilt or anger, we are who we are.
Love Love Love
xxxx
hugs, hugs and more hugs - I know how you feel, what I do is cry as much as I need to then put on some worship music and pick up an above rubies mag or bible and try take my focus off me and how I feel and on Jesus and wat He's done for me, easier said than done I know xxxxx
Post a Comment